The Body and the Weather
There was once a woman who learned the day through her muscles first.
There was once a woman who learned the day through her muscles first. Before thought, before sound, there was the tightening. Calves drawing up like cords pulled too far. A bright, sudden pain that said: you are made of water and salt and small electric signals that misfire.
She answered the way bodies do. Glass of water. Pinch of salt. The elastic yellow curve of a banana, starch and potassium, a simple spell.
She knew time not as a clock but as pressure. How it accumulated to stretch tissue and tendon. How living felt less like moving forward and more like being elongated, pulled into shape like taffy, the way muscles are lengthened whether they agree or not.
On the table, pigment and water repeated the lesson. The brush laid down color. The water obeyed for a moment, staying within the line, then pooled and swelled and crossed. The surface tension broke and the color formed long sloping legs, gravity teaching it how to walk. Physics had no interest in intention. Only in weight and pull and where things must go.
She thought of herself as something once grown in a tended place. Not wild, feral. A body raised with expectation of shelter. And yet here she was, learning the rules of exposure. How heat stripped moisture. How cold tightened. How endurance was not a moral quality but a chemical one.
The city rose around her in thick segments, a Kit Kat skyline, each building a dense bar of matter. Mortar still held the memory of being soft. Everything hard had once been pliable. Everything standing had once been poured.
In the ocean, there came a moment when her skin and the water matched. The nerves lost their outline. The body stopped announcing itself as separate. A hand moved through the sea and felt ghostly, as if passing through its own temperature. A seam in the world loosened.
She remembered the trout falling from the helicopter. How their bodies curved in midair, muscles firing for a medium that was not yet there. How some would land and find the current, pair off, live. How others would strike too fast, too cold, too wrong. Snowmelt does not wait for readiness. Gravity does not negotiate. The fish were suspended between elements, and then they were not.
At night, a sound sometimes tore through the trees. High. Raw. It might have been a fox. A wild pig. A woman. Only wind dragged thin through branches. The body heard it as vibration before meaning. As frequency, pressure on the ear.
She understood, in this way, that she was an arrangement of forces. Heat and cold. Hydration and depletion. Falling and landing. That to be alive was to be in negotiation with the fact of having mass.
There were hands. There was a brain. There was music moving through bone. And all of it obeyed the same laws as water crossing a line, as fish dropping through air.
The day did not ask if she was ready.
It only continued to pull.
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